Pseudo Macho Cry Baby

Hello Again, Freddy Ruppert ::

This man will haunt you. Finding the power to distance myself from the art in order to write this is increasingly difficult – even more painful than being sucked into the creative mind behind the now defunct This Song Is A Mess But So Am I [TSIAM].  There is a strange fevered energy not unlike the reason of movement of the pelagic shark – wherein physical stasis induces asphyxiation – so does the song.  From the end of the project in 2007, the seemingly inexhaustible Freddy Ruppert has found himself drained completely.  He can now be found expressing love from all its extreme points with Former Ghosts.  Redemption evolution has mellowed out enough this with the forthcoming release on Upset the Rhythm this fall – an album that hopefully won’t induce as many nightmares..

Ruppert has crafted his own unique sound drawing autobiographically.  In the beginning, TSIAM was the physical accumulation of emotion and the catharsis of his mother’s cancer and death.  The sounds of Church Point, LA [2004], Marble Mouth [2006] and Satan Be Here Sessions [unreleased] are  and vocals that grate the scalp and induces existential exsanguination.  The circumstances surrounding this music were unfortunately necessary – TSIAM could not have existed without the unfolding of real life events.  The anguished laments of Church Point, LA are riddled with references coinciding with Freddy’s formal connection with Religious Studies
‘ God and Cancer’, ‘Parting Sea’, and ‘Psalm 88’ are particularly critical of ; Though a self-declared atheist, affirms this is common with anyone who has experienced a spiritual crisis.  The need for physical unleashing of pain came organically with the performative side to music.

In taking the stage, Ruppert had successfully crafted his own world in which to lose control, to ‘be taken to where the song is’.  These singular moments of raw energy were the obsessive pulls.  Performing music changes the experience in as many ways as music exists.  If it means pissing off the sound guy – so be it.  Deafening sound is incomparable to the loss of hearing [remember kids! bring your earplugs] of Metatron is transferring his opus of loss.  The convulsions, the screaming equipment, the pedals, and the sweat – YouTube does no justice to the multisensory exhibit that is Freddy Ruppert in his own world.

After the release of Marble Mouth, the documentation of life after the fact and touring extensively – the process had ceased to be therapeutic or useful in the healing process.  Satan Be Here [unreleased – maybe because it is a harrowing  self-introspection of the negative, a need to push to the edge in order to have come back renewed.  The desire to continue to create had run out completely, and so TSIAM was put to rest in 2007 – as explosive as it began – it ended.

After a 2 year hiatus, Freddy has all but given up convulsive mechanics for a haunting dream pop sound glorifying life instead of questioning it.  How does one approach the maker of the music?  The transition from covering Ministry’s ‘Burning Inside’ to posting the pre-Former Ghosts ‘Unfolding’ as a gift was indeed a drastic one.
Ruppert claims were many false starts in to making music again, any attempt felt contrived, out of place and was ultimate abandoned to rot on a hard drive.   That is until a singular event of love completed the task of fruitful connection.  Songs were posted online and people seemed to relate and respond, and it evolved into Former Ghosts.  Ruppert, teaming up with Jamie Stewart of Xiu Xiu and Nika Roza of Zola Jesus have begun a very mysterious inquiry into love.

The creative circumstances behind the ‘why’ have changed courses just as life usually does and the external event as inspiration for the music has remained the same.  While Ruppert has had no formal education in music production or industry, and has no concrete plans in making a living off his music – the craft will always be there.  ‘I make things because i have to make them whether there is an audience for it or not’.  Without that sort of physically engaging outlet of concentrated emotional, albeit traumatic, events, madness would reign – that is the only sense of satisfaction granted to the creator.

Attempting to classify Freddy Ruppert at this stage in his career would be futile – the man has proven to his listeners his ability to wrench both carnal and soothing noises from any source he can get his hands on.  Despite the individuality of each song, and the strength it took to invoke it to stand, in autobiographical music, the tracks are grouped together harmoniously in albums.  In looking back over these stages, Ruppert knows the movements and the path, even if their functions differ.

When not making music, freddy is known to be sleeping and working out.  He has no bizarre compulsions, collections, or alter egoes.  This is one totally normal guy.

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