a man whose wisdom borders on infinite once said

be the change you

want to see in

the world

[it was gandhi, you know]

never have these words rung in my head so true as they do at this very moment.  in november/december i was confronted with the reality that i cannot, on any grounds, communicate with someone if they refuse to engage with me.  so it goes.  now, a mere 5 months later, i am in an open dialogue with someone else, but whose value system is so radically different from my own, that dialogue is rendered moot.

like several thousand other montrealers, i am a renter.  my funny little complex has this hideously paved front ‘yard’.  inspired by crack gardens, my flatmate and i pulled up the dandelion infestation, and in doing so, lifted some of the asphalt lain.  our little trowel was handy, and real damage could have been done had we been armed with a spade or other large weapon.  we planted violas, lupins, and other various wildflowers.  it was a glorious time in the sun, digging the soil, talking with our neighbours.

front yard

☝28 march, 2010.  the dandelions are beginning.
☟3 may, 2010, after putting the broken pieces back like a puzzle because we didnt know what else to do with them.
view from my room and our front balcony, respectively.

front yard post debacle

we were severely reprimanded for destruction of private property and were threatened legal action if we didn’t ‘put it back’.  i’m not asking to be sympathized with at all, but i am having trouble understand the long term value of concrete.  summer rolls around and i love our west facing 2nd floor balcony.  looking down isn’t a very inviting communal space, and our efforts were to help make one while being environmentally conscious.  maybe i’m just a hole digging country girl but when and where i came from no one at all at all at all had a concrete yard. non mi piaci.

some things i value

  • spatial innovation to achieve the highest possible potential of beauty in the eye of the beholder
  • laughter
  • communication
  • change
  • oxygen
  • making your own memories
  • discovering homology [the creation of aggregates out of seemingly unrelated things]
  • friends – the family that you make for yourself
  • LOVE big LOVE
  • idealist integrity and the ability to stand by the things you value and apply them to your daily life
  • storytelling
  • health
  • resourcefulness in times of great dispossession
  • verbs, the descriptors of action

i’m not saying that what i was doing was right, but it certainly felt like the natural thing to do.  i see cracks, i pull them.  insert flower seeds, enjoy the fruits of our labour.  of all the public interventions ive done – all the tagging and the wheat pasting, it figures the one time i would get negative feedback would be right in front of my very house.  the one day r and i stood up and said ‘we are going to get off our butts and make this house a flower filled home’, the hand of the world says NO.  if the intention of the message is for me to stop, then maybe you shouldn’t look at the back yard.  i don’t want to martyr myself or go down the road of activism, that’s not for me.  but i do want to be the ACTIONIST person i value so much.  there is room for improvement, space for change.  go do!

in other news

  • watching a lot of doctor who
  • hand sewing these felt circle type things.  its a long story.
  • Lernen Deutsch, ja?!
  • latch hooking rugs with lady reqbat
  • drinking a lot of echinacea
  • cherishing my 12 year old self by revisiting my post-grunge roots



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